Hey Faith & Kara ~ Thanks for checking in on me. (((hugs)))
I haven't been on in a few days because I felt I needed a break. My posts were sounding too down. And that is not how I want to react through this. I want to remain strong, and keep my FAITH and TRUST in the LORD.
Kara ~
Thank you for your wonderful post. I do need to remember that she does not have my H. The one I love and married anyway. And the one who loves and married me.
I will send her a sympathy card when this is over. I will tell her she didn't really lose anything, because she didn't really have "him" anyway. She had someone who was going through a MLC. Even if he doesn't come out of it, and this D becomes reality, she still doesn't have "HIM". I will not lose H through D. I will only be losing the MLC H. What I want is the original version.
For now I am still his wife, I will remain faithful, and hold on to hope that the fog will clear till the very end.
Over the weekend, I got more paperwork together that my attorney needed. I had been putting it off because it seems so final. But I knew that I needed to deal with it. I just made up my mind that I needed to do it for me. For every tear I've shed. I've mentioned before that he is being very cold with the terms. He doesn't want me to have much of anything. We don't have children between us, but we have been married for thirteen years. He made the remark when this all started, that he married me because he felt sorry for me. When were dating, he lived in a run down rental house, had an old car, and kept his food in an ice chest. When we got married he moved in with me in a very nice rental house. Did he ever change the history on that one! In fact, it was me who made it possible for us to buy our home. I had money in the bank. I loved him for who he was, not for what he had. OW loves him ( if she really does ) for what he has and what he can give her. We now have a beautiful home, and he has a very good job. And a very nice Harley that she rides on now. He has cast me aside for a younger model. She is fifteen years younger and has been married three times. It's all so sad.
I also created a Timeline. It starts when I first noticed him acting strangely and doing things differently. I have been wanting to do this for a long time. To actually write it down, instead of keeping it in my head. I will be giving a copy to my attorney. She said she would also like the projection letter he wrote me. I haven't decided if I want to give her a copy yet, or just keep it to myself.
