Hey UD - the testosterone gel has largely done the job, but yeah I've used that before -
LFH - thank you for the encouragement. I came home tonight, she was in the bath and OK with me coming in to talk as long as I didn't look. She said "I still feel close to you!" Said she'd been thinking about me all day.
Doesn't want to do the dialogue anymore - saying that we're good at talking anyway.
Said that she's still mad and wants to hit me - saying that the weekend made her realize how much she doesn't want the relationship to end, and she's mad at me even though it's not my "fault". Says she wants to enjoy this time with me that we have left.
When I tried to nuzzle her neck a little, she told me to cut it out. She kissed me on the cheek at one point, but at another point when we were nuzzling faces, she told me not to kiss her.
Watching a movie with the kids, she wanted me close so she could put her legs on me, but not with my arm around her.
I don't know what to think at this point - and yes, it's just a matter of being patient I guess. This business of pull-push, of not wanting to end it but doing it anyway... I don't know.
Seems some of this is in the right direction, but also seems like it's more of the same - Karen predicted this - she comes closer, I pursue a little bit. So we've reconnected - now do I pull back? DBing would suggest so.
I've got a C appointment tomorrow. Guess I'll have a lot to talk about.
I hope you're right. I hope we can keep stepping down this path.
LFH, I wish you the best of luck for this weekend! It's a good experience. Don't plan on getting much sleep.
