You've poured your heart out to two pastors and no response? Ask them what's up, don't rely on email to be delivered.
I heard a radio announcer say today the only reason America got found is because some white guy got lost! I celebrated by going to the chiropracter because my lower back kept grabbing me and buckling my knees. Ouch!
Your C is right. I was in C years ago and was told then that if you learn to shut out the hurt or sad that you also end up blocking out the good and the happy. Feel to heal - so true!
It sounds like you and stbxw are getting along better. Much of the anger is absent. What happens next?
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.
