Trying to cope with H, IA/EA (was Newbie-1st post)

[Faith2010]

Mishka-

I am in C. I was very codependent for an extremely long time. I have come a long way since then. Whether I am completely past it, I don't know.

I should have said want, not need. I know I don't need him.

There are times I want the man I married back so bad I can't see straight. There are other times when I wonder why.

I've always been afraid of being a failure. I know I still have that fear. Another aspect is my religion and the vows I took. I feel like I have committed so many sins in my life I don't want to add this to it. I know I need to go to a Priest to discuss because I really struggle with it.

While driving tonight I thought "I am worth it. If he can't see that, that's his problem, not mine."

I will survive...of that I am sure.