It's too hard sometimes

[TooLateForMe]

Detachment-wise, I'm tired of the wall. Not my wall, hers. Mine came down. I'm rediscovering the me that I left behind and trying not to make choices or do anything to "get her back."

I changed in the R. I want to have more discussions w/ W to get at what went wrong. Not to soothe her but to understand what went wrong with me. That's not going to happen, though. I just don't want to be around her until she gets through the anger and resentment. It's unappealing and works against the healing I'm trying to do.