Hoping WAW will someday see through the fog....

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Greek, had no chance to pick up new clothes yesterday before my trip, but will look out in Cali. Probably too $$$ out there. Still, it will be a goal.

Last night was interesting, went to Church and heard an incredible sermon, the gist of which was, before making big decisions in your life, always listen to that little voice in the back of you head. If there is any, any thoughts that you might be making the wrong decision - yeild to that. Pause, take time. Listen to what other are saying and don't get caught up in the passion of the situation. Decisions made from the heart are almost always wrong. (of course in the sermon they refered to it as the Holy Spirit, but if you are not Christian, it could be considered your conscious.) Now as I listend to it, I almost began to get sick with nervousness, wondering if my W had heard it earlier in the day. Now adays we dont attend the same service. I expected that she did, but probably did not listen. It was as though the preacher was speaking to us. To HER.

I came home to her wearing all of her engagement and wedding bands and a big smile on her face, her hair done exactly the way I like. And she said, so, "What did you think of the Sermon, I thought it was really powerful." Well, the GALing 180 DBer in me (who was wearing nice younger looking clothes (wink, wink Greek - I dug them up) says she heard a completely different story and is using it to justify to herself getting a D. But in all honesty, we had a nice evening with NO R or D discussion and no further discussion about the Sermon at all. She went her way and I went mine at the end of the evening. Last night was good. For two hours, the old W emerged from the Fog. Surely to be back by the time I return from my trip....I know she has gotten her L so maybe she is having some second thoughts after writing a BIG $$$ check to pay the retainer......

Well, it doesnt matter, just an interesting tidbit of info. Off to the left coast today where I will not make phone calls or txts except for my boys.

Greek, Sandi, GIMA, Coach and Tristan you all always have such good advice. Don't know where this will end, but every day I feel stronger and more capable of dealing with any outcome!