Had a quiet weekend with the boys after a rough time picking them up on Friday. First off, my great mood of the week and day was trashed as now OM is driving 'our' car. I know it shouldn't get to me, but none the less it did. The S11 was in a rotten mood and very disrespectful to XW then me, so I kind of let him have it and it got ugly from there.
After getting him simmered down and the boys got in the car I confronted XW that I think it's time she start dropping them off by me. It's been 4 times in a row now that some bit and piece of a life taken away from me is being man-handled by someone else (meaning OM) and that although she's obviously so easily over everything, I'm not, I still hurt and will for some time. I know, I shouldn't of said it and it flew out before I realised what I was saying, but, I did.
She had this dumbfounded look, like she wanted to cry, but then wanted to smile, and it was one of those ackward smiles, like a 'I'm glad you said that smirk, coupled with a sinister grin.
She did say she wanted to talk more with me, but doesn't want to fight. I said there's nothing left to fight over anymore between us, IT'S OVER. All there is the boys.
Uggh, I feel like such a dummy for being so open and letting her know I'm still stuck.
Heh, my cousin, her friend and I broke out the Quija board Friday night after the boys went down. Supposidly, I'm going to get my personal belongings back within 2 months and XW and I are going to get back together. Don't see that happening anytime soon. Plus, she seems a bit confused. S11 had his assignment notebook and I peaked at it. XW who was sooooooo quick to get rid of name can't remember who she is. One day she signs her maiden name, the next day mine.
Me 35/XW 33 S13 & S12 M: 10/17/98 OM & S: 07/08 D final 06/09/09 12/03/09 - 06/13/10 "Piercing" 06/13/10: Engaged to Re-marry 10/17/10 06/25/10: Expecting baby #3 2/14/11
