Hey sweetie. Just recovering from a glorious weekend with some wonderful friends.
Catching up with you now.
The reflection time is really good. It sounds like the meditation is helping you sort through stuff. It does and will bring stuff up for you.
You know, accepting that the marriage as you remember it is over is hard, but just one of our many steps through this journey. Can it be reborn? That is really up to you. If, as you and H grow, change, and heal, it is entirely possible that a new relationship can rise from the ashes. What that relationship will be, how it will look and grow, is entirely up to the both of you.
Keep doing your inner work, looking in that mirror, changing what you feel like you need to change, and living YOUR life. Each day is a new step forward and believe me, although you might not be able to see it now, the butterfly that will emerge from your cocoon as you grow, is going to be someone extremely beautiful.
"Acceptance doesn't mean resignation. It means understanding that something is what it is and there's got to be a way through it."--Michael J. Fox
