I`m also very interested to read about the co dependency aspect to our partners behaviour.I really fed into H`s anger for so long without realising it
Whether its addiction or not, it seems the one thing you must be willing to do is let your H go. Can`t be the needy person pestering him to stay.
So of course you don`t send that letter.
You`ve gotta up the Fun Stakes for you. Even though you don`t feel like playing!You`ve gotta do it for your kid`s sake, as well as your own.
Have fun every day. Simple stuff. Make a list.
My idea of fun is Bath by candlelight walk/run in the woods Walk on the beach in moonlight Cycle in the rain Draw Catch up with old friends/make new ones switch around clothes in my wardrobe Change my make up
You get the idea-doesn`t have to cost a fortune. All about doing something different, something you wouldn`t normally do, have an adventure just for you.
Can you think of this as perhaps being the best thing that ever happened to you? Can you think that there is a huge learning for you in all of this? That H leaving could actually open a new chapter of something wonderful for you in life?
I hate H leaving. I hate this whole process. But I know I can`t control it. And I know I can`t stop it. Gotta let God and let go. Trust that everything will be okay.
I am staying as close to God as I can. Being still and listening for the first time in my life.Finding the real me in all of this.
And I squeeze whatever fun I can out of my life one day at a time.
