I know what you mean about still being wary, though... I think that now I've been trained to see my M in one of two modes: (1) before the bomb: near death and feeling bad; (2) after the bomb: even closer to death and feeling hope. It's almost like I'm afraid to relax, because NOT relaxing give me hope... for us action-oriented people it's hard. My C is telling me to enjoy the status-quo for now... live in the moment and give this time to mature.
Quote: HIs calls might have had something to do with a "bad feeling" he had been having since Thurs. night. He said he just had this "feeling" like something was going to happen and he was real tense until he got most of the way home About an hour away from the house he said it finally just disappeared. He asked me if I had "seen" anything and I told him no, but that I did have an uneasy feeling the day he left. Nothing concrete though so I dodn't mention it to him.
THis might be worth thinking about - what was going on when this happened? We tended to have those periods of vague unease too - if this tends to be a continuing pattern, it might be worthwhile to dig a little.
Sounds like you did a great job with your PMA, hiding your disappointment at different moments. You're doing GREAT with your communication - I know for us, our communication has improved SO MUCH and it make a big difference.
Great job, Zoo - give it time and those feelings of warriness will subside...
