New to this Community seeking advice

[JR09]

Thanks Carlos.

Great to hear from you again. Thanks for the rational explanation. To answer your question: I don't have a set time to call the boys. I try every 3 days. The boys usually use my W's cell phone so I always feel a bit uneasy always calling her cell phone.

I don't want her to think that I am harassing her or pursuing/begging by calling the boys. Sometimes she picks up the call and gives the cell phone to the boys. Most of the time I pick up her voicemail and tell her I'm checking in for the boys and her as well. The boys end up calling me later.

I know the boys put up a good front on the phone when we chat. I know it hurts them to talk to me because they miss me, especially my S10. He's very sensitive and keeps his answers short. I know how emotional he can get since we are not together.

Anyway. I'm OK. I did my crying tonight for a few minutes. It's good to let it out now and then. I miss my W and kids terribly, just like so many others on this forum. I do email my boys frequently, so that's a good thing. I love my W with all my heart and wish she could experience the new me. She probably already has through our linkups here and there, and occasional phone contacts, albeit brief.

Well Carlos, you are a great support. Thanks again. sorry about your W. I admire your calm attitude and very wise outlook on everything. I guess I do struggle with being in limboland. I understand how vital it is to work on myself. It truly is the only way to survive all this.

JR