Good news that you had a positive experience with your H over the weekend. Yes, you are right, trying not to push or get everything across at once is downright difficult but that is where you have to develop self control to hold stuff back.
Use this positive experience Nell to build your self esteem and to confirm that you are a new woman, in control of your emotions and your own self and your destiny. You are now becoming the new Nell not the old Nell that your H knew.
Depending on what you want to do in the future with regards your M Nell, all this is helping you become a stronger person Nell able to move into the future with confidence with or without your H.
Oh and yes, I think we all put our H's on a pedestal for a long time and then suddenly realise that they aren't perfect and need to earn our respect for a change.
