Thanks Dudess and EN for responding. I have been on the forums a lot but I am not sure it is working. I am feeling like there is no reason to get up anymore. I am in the gym relentlessly and I just don't care about any of it anymore. Everything, I see, I watch, people I know, everything reminds me of how much I miss her and want her back in my life. Even the idea of dating is horrid because it would be like settling. I am truly not sure I am going to make it especially with the upcoming holidays. Giving up has to meanings now for me. Giving up on getting her back and giving up on it all.
