You are angry at a man that has been away.. for a long time.
Why now?
You knew this was a possibility. You have said it did not matter.
Why now?
"I've been thinking what I would need to "forget" to try again."
This has been your story all along. Day after day. Month after month. Post after post.
"forget"
You can't define that word in your "stitch" in its current state.
It is something that will need to be defined later. You can keep on like you are and get no where. Or you make the sacrifice and do it.. or you make the sacrifice and move on. Someone has to lead. I have said that from the start. You have to make a choice and follow it to the letter. You have not done that from my POV. Call me crazy if you want to.
"Much less forgive. WTH did he have to go and fall in love with someone else? I will never really understand that. He broke us and I dont see a way to "mend" us."
Hmmm..
I need to break that down.
"WTH did he have to go and fall in love with someone else? I will never really understand that."
Yes you do. When things are against you.. "something" pops up. Just because "she" was closer does not really factor in here. If you want me to be honest.. you had your chance and made your choice. I applaud that.
"He broke us and I dont see a way to "mend" us."
He broke you. An effect of that was he broke "us". The choice is still.. up to you. Lemme clue you in.. you have the "control" you are just not using it.. cause you don't know what to do with it. You have always been a part of the problem.. and a part of the solution. The life you lead and the choices you make direct which "side" (problem/solution) you are on. You lead.. or you follow. It is that simple.
What are you doing right now?
Are you feeling dragged along? <---- hint.
Is this where you want to be?
Do you want things to change? <---- hint.
You clearly have control. Make no mistake about it.
So what do you want?
Relax Eat Think Act normal React.. Smartly. Do something different. Emulate. Do Work.
