Well, nothing much has really happened today...bloomin' headache was really starting to get the best of me, thought it was gonna go full blown migraine since meds weren't working A couple of Ultram and 6 tylenol later and that dull roar I was hoping for has arrived...whew!

Got to talk to H twice again today! Lecture ended earlier so he surprised me by calling this afternoon...said he was lonely and missing me and thought it would be good just to hear my voice Chatted a little bit, H said if lecture series ended early he was gonna see if he could catch an earlier flight home.

Before hanging up I asked H if he would call me tomorrow regarding the earlier flight. H said of course but he planned on coming straight back to hotel after supper tonight and thought it would be nice if I called HIM later this evening

Had a nice second convo H said he couldn't wait to get home and he was going to need lots of extra to make up for being gone so long I think he must have HEARD me blushing because he started laughing and asked what's wrong hon??

It has been SOOO long since he has talked like this on the phone to me...sometimes I want to pinch myself really hard just to make sure it is all real. A year and a half ago and our phone convo's lasted all of 10 min. and he'd never give me the number to the room or hotel he was staying in.

A memory just flashed for me though This time last year H got sent to Nashville for a couple of weeks. He remembered my B'day for once and bought me really great presents. H only stayed in a hotel two nights while there then decided to just drive down every other day (3 hr. drive) and come back home.

The last trip H made down was the first time he took me on a business oriented trip with him. We had a great time and he took me all over the place and showed me the sights (I had never been to N'ville before).

During this time frame H was very loving and attentive to me...kind of like he is now and much more so then H had been previously I find myself wondering if H might not have been trying to break it off with OW then??

WHen H was unloading all of his "truths" on me about A and some other things I did ask him about this time frame. One of H's "truths" had been that business trip earlier in the year had involved "being" with OW (they had been sent together by company). I asked H if the same was true for the N'ville trip...did OW accompany H when he stayed down there the first week. H said no...OW never was with him on any of his other trips...just that one earlier.

I know I shouldn't be thinking about the past I have none of the unease or fear eating me up though now. Just looking foward to H returning tomorrow

Positives
1. Talked to H twice today. Loved hearing the smile in his voice while he was talking

2. Got the yard mowed despite having headache. I do not recommend doing this on a bright,sunny day...tends to make the headache worse!

3. H promised lots of ....

Zoo

"If patience is worth anything, it must endure to the end of time. And a living faith will last in the midst of the blackest storm." - Mahatma Gandhi