Young couple in need of help

[sumguy27]

Today sucks. I haven't felt so depressed in a long time. I freaking started crying out of the blue. Maybe its because I had texted her that I was going to drop the kids off at 5pm because I have plans. She is out of town 2 hours away. Tells me to drop them off at FIL. I'm just so angry, frustrated, sad, and lonely. Knowing that she is having the time of her life and I'm stuck being responsible. I'm stuck with all the worries about my children only. I'm the only one to care for them. Why the hell do I still want her back? She doesn't even care about me. She doesn't even care about my kids.

I'm trying very hard to detach. Yet I still am willing to do anything to get her back into my life. I know she is not this person. I know she is a great and wonderful person and I don't know who she is anymore. This pain is too much sometimes. I falling out of hope.