Oh, Creed, I fully agree, he is a real "trick", full of revenge, for things only he sees.... or makes up. You know, I still don't know what I did to set him off so, except agree to his desperately needed divorce, which at first, I didn't want (and where was my head then? Scary thought, isn't it?) I didn't reject him, I didn't leave him, he left.... so what did I do that deserves all of his hostility? Now, in an off the wall, and I mean way off the wall, I can almost see how Dick feels S rejected him and his life.... Yet, S doesn't deserve anything that he has been through. The close adults in his life watch him carefully, as we watch him "laugh" it off, while knowing how much pain he has within him. It makes me sick to think how much this man has gotten away with.
Snodderly,
Why the letter? It blows my mind to see this evidence, why not just verbally blast the boy? Dick seems to be leaving clues to his true self all over the place.... is this the grandios belief he can't be caught? Does he truly believe he is above the law? S told me Dick is not answering his calls, a behavior he exibited with me, now S, as I realize it is to avoid any or all confrontations and allow him to have the last word, i.e. control, but at one point, when does this man grow up, and allow S the freedom to speak his mind? Is Dick beginning to unravel? Do "Ns" eventually eventually hit the rocks or do they always believe they are immortal or do they just go into alzheimers with their fantasy life?
I'm just wondering if we will always have to live with our guard up waiting for the next shoe to drop..... and why was he able to let go of his previous family so much earlier than he has with us? Is it because he was able to manipulate the courts?
I am worried about both my kids, although S and I will work through things, with help, but I've been wondering about D, who is not as strong, who internalizes her pain, who is gentically predispositioned for depression and/or bipolar depression. I worry about bringing her out of all that has gone on.
I need to stop worrying about things I have no control over, and believe in the Man upstairs...... I just can't help my mind from wondering.
Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you.........
