"He's probably thinking that since there is one room, I will share it with him. Just because we are on vacation doesn't mean I'm going to do that. I'm going to give myself the time I need - I NEED - to reach decisions that are comfortable for me. I've been making concessions and compromises for years and putting myself out. Just because we're on vacation doesn't mean I'm taking a vacation from doing what I need to do at this time. And besides, what if I did share the bed with him now BECAUSE we are on vacation - just to be festive, convenient or not make waves - and then what do I do when I get home? Move back into the bedroom - not ready? Or not knowing if I'm ready? Then have to move out again because I feel pressured or pressured myself? No. I'm committed to choosing for the right reasons for me. It's honest."
I don't know Mrs. GIMA...obviously. But I'm just imagining myself in her shoes (I was in her shoes) and what/how I might see this sitch. I promise you, if you are moping even just a little, she detects it. She has been bracing herself for it.
My father told me once, "If you can't be happy in one way, be so in another." Find all the reasons to be happy on your vacation RIGHT NOW, put the negative feelings away for now. Expressing the negative feelings right now will not move you closer to your goal. Not saying don't deal with them or that they are not valid...just that now is not the time or place.
Stretch out in the bed and enjoy the whole damned thing Cheers ~ Greek (sad LSU fan)
Me45 H46 T25 M22 S21 & 19 D13 Separated and filed 8/08 Moved home 11/08
