It's too hard sometimes

[TooLateForMe]

The test mentioned in previous post was medical.

I've been avoiding facebook lately but went on and saw a post from MIL about W wanting cough syrup. I texted W to see if she still needed some and she said a friend got her some. I waited to reply and just said "K".

In another thread someone asked about "K" versus "okay" wondering what they meant. I've spent too much time worrying about things like that and realized it isn't worth the anxiety to care. I thought I'd try to make her wonder a little. You never know.

I have made a big deal to W how much I hate that text-speak. It may mean nothing to her but then again the pseudo-180 might be noticed (being less anal about something). I left it at that. Short and simple. She might notice a difference from my behavior of late. I tend to try to draw out conversations and get pushy when I feel she's avoiding me.

Maybe I'm over analyzing but I think I'm just being aware of my behavior and how it effects her (and ultimately others). It seems obnoxious to focus on a short text conversation but I think by doing that I'm getting a better understanding of where I'm at and where I need to be.

And, yes, I'm faking a detachment (for now, anyway) to see if I can get her to drop her guard a bit.