Thanks Lotus, yes the affair lasted a year before he moved out and another 6 months in a happy state and then it went downhill. BUT the lies lasted 3 whole years...
Kerry, I said I know this limbo is my choice, I dont blame him for the limbo anymore.
My part in this mess? I have described in detail my part in this mess. I did for the last year before he moved out what the books say it is a love killer:I was criticising him, showing I didnt value him. But now, I am not sure anymore what started first, me being a bitch or him having an affair and treating me like chit and I became a bitch because of that... The timeline is not so clear in my head.
I dont think I am obsessed with him. I am obsessed with finally ending this situation which causes me to feel miserable. I feel there is no more time. I dont have time for more hobbies. I paint, make jewelery, take the kids to their activities 7 days a week(as of next weekend my son has football Sat-Sun), see my friends when they can, etc etc. I am not stuck in that sense. Sometimes I feel I need to have some more time just to relax.
Today he came to take the kids to the theater. He asked me again if I want to join them. I declined the invitation. K
