Well, made it through the day. My feelings haven't changed. I just feel neglected, even ignored. I know DB'ing is about being totally unselfish, and I recognize my feelings for what they are - the reaction to (a) a completely and utterly empty love tank coupled with (b) the expectation that that will change.
This was the first day in a long while that took a substantial part of my energy just to carry on a conversation with her. At times, I had to make myself be polite. And, normally, I am NOT that someone who has to make himself have a conversation and make himself be polite.
So, friends, I need some help and input. Is it common for someone to go through what I'm going through? I feel like I have been DB'ing my a$$ off the last 4 1/2 months, and while I have seen some steps towards me, I don't know that I've seen any substantial steps towards me. No real physical contact initiated by her. The sleeping arrangement for this Disney trip shouldn't bother me, but it does.Maybe it's the way she so dismissively said she was fine to sleep on the pull out bed that is what cut pretty deeply. Maybe it's that I wanted her just to sleep in the same bed. Nothing more. Just be there.
