Moving on with my life!

[S.T. _I Made It!]

I wonder how such a broken person has no problem getting women lined up and willing to do whatever for him

and you want a companion that is similar to the ones he dates BECAUSE?....... ya, even though he's getting these women to go out with him, doesn't mean they are not pathetic...cause they are. who would want that?

yes, you NEED to get something going for you. Can you fine people at church? I know being in a small town does have it's cons...people can be very judgmental. but surely there are some good people you can find.

on the sleeping arrangement...because it's just you and the baby, I think that is perfectly find if it works for you. if you are okay with not getting to go out late at night, although if you have someone that can handle the crying a bit that you feel really comfortable with like a family member or good friend, then it's okay if the baby cries for you if they are there for the baby. and perhaps just go out till a certain time like midnight, or whatever. I remember having the same issue with my first because my H lived with his mom in another state while I was with my mom, so s11 slept with me. and boy, when my mom would watch him if I went out, it was not a pretty sight, but he was with someone who loved him, and he wasn't being abandoned in a room by himself, so I think it's okay.



fyi, if I haven't already mentioned (cause I tell people this all the time), Harvard studies have shown that babies that are taught to cry-it-out end up having problems dealing with stress in adulthood and have more anxiety than the non-cry-it-out babies. so IMHO, your doing okay. just try to figure out times to take care of you.