Trying to cope with H, IA/EA (was Newbie-1st post)

[Faith2010]

H actually came back to the house Friday night. Said he forgot some stuff. We were about to eat dinner (S had friends over) and H got some dinner and sat down. While eating my Mom showed up. She confronted H. H barely said a word but did say "There's 2 sides to every story" and it was between him and I. I said nothing. H threw his food away and left.

No contact with H today.

S told me H told him he was leaving and told S it had nothing to do with OW. H told S he was talking to her but no more and him leaving was because of problems between H and I.

I haven't cried since he left but I'm scared. I'm afraid I'll break down. I know this is the right thing...I know it but I am scared half to death. I am afraid of tomorrow, I am afraid to talk to him...I am afraid I'll break down. I am doubting myself. I don't know if I have the courage to do this. I am terrified.