Came back from my vacation a few days ago. I had a blast with my friends. It was good to get away from my sitch. I really needed a change of scenery to recharge my batteries.
There was very limited contact with my H while I was gone. I only contacted him to let him know that I had arrived safely. He did call at 11:30 one night about a household matter. I thought that there was an emergency when I saw the call but when I answered realized that there wasn't one.
I did some thinking while on vacation and realized that I really do love this man. However, looking at my sitch I really think that he has tuned out. I have said goodbye in my heart and released him.
While I was on vacation I started thinking about the life I want to lead. I felt like I reached a milestone. I am not sure exactly where I am headed but good things are unfolding. Some positive things have been happening in my life outside of my M challenges. I am excited about those. When I was on vacation one of my friends was skipping down the street like a little kid. She was so happy to be in the moment. She looked a bit silly and I lovingly asked her if she knew how silly she looked. She knows a bit about my sitch and said to me if I were you I would skip a little every day. And then we both skipped down that street to the amusement of several passersby. So, I plan to skip a little every day. Don't you just love friends like that ?
