Ali, I just read what you wrote on Kalni's thread. It is so easy to think of the time apart from your boyfriend as wasted, but it wasn't. You both had some lessons to learn so that you could come together without baggage and have a true relationship. He had to grieve his Dad and also find a strength within himself that he didn't know he had. He had to learn to be strong enough for you when you were ill or sad or just in a funk.
You had to learn that it was really him that you wanted and not just because he left. You want him despite his depression. You also learned to count on yourself more and that you could be ok by yourself.
You both used your time so certainly wasn't wasted. Now get back to knowing that you are both lucky that you are meant to be together. No more taking any of it for granted.
hugs, kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory