Well I am angry and sad again today. As I said on K's thread, it isn't either of those exactly. I feel 'wronged', violated, etc.
It is strange b/c I was very frustrated/angry on Wednesday night when I snapped at H. Then Thurs/Fri somehow I got back to thinking, if we are getting a D then for my kids at least we can be friends.
At least this time it only took two days for me to figure out "Nope, not now". I guess I am cycling, but a little faster? Don't know if that is good or bad...
I was shopping today and for some reason thought of him and her together. And how he chose that over me, our family, etc etc instead of talking to me about what was wrong.
I feel almost embarrassed/ashamed today. Thinking of how I have 'killed him with kindess' the past 2 years since this happened. You know how dogs will get down on their belly to a bigger dog to show that they submit? That has to be how I came across so many times and I am embarrassed to think that...
Mike I bought the Lady Antebellum CD today. I knew several of their songs already but I listened to the one you posted the other day. Good stuff. Several good songs on that CD about relationships actually...
And out of the blue, I decided to reactivate my Match account. Not planning to date yet, but wanted some interactions for the old PMA. Had an IM exchange with a gentleman this morning. He was heading for the farmer's market while I was heading out to a big craft fair, biggest one in the state supposedly. Ten minutes later I got a notice that he had added me to his "favorites" list... Just nice to remember that I am a pretty great, appealing person, my H just happens to be an idiot...
That has to be how I came across so many times and I am embarrassed to think that...
