Man for some reason I'm have this huge urge to call her. Or text her or do anything to get contact with her. I know my eomtions are running strong. I had to post as I haven't had a feeling like this for a long time. I'm trying to fight it and fight it hard. Gosh its so easy to just click away and contact her. Today is a very low day for me. I miss her more then ever. Our past keeps coming up and I haven't forgiven myself for the mistakes. And all the I wish I wouldn't have done what I did is running through my head. Its all hitting me very freaking hard right now.


Me:27
W:24
S:2
D:9 months
M:3 years
Together for 8 years
Bombed : 6/11/09
Moved out: 6/27/09
Found out about her affair 9/7/09
(she started her's at 6/25/09)
Begged n plead 7/25/09
started DB 8/17/09