Must give credit where it's due...the three positives came from Sage and LostLove. But they've been a Godsend to LOTS of us!
I'll echo something you mentioned...I was FLOORED when while cutting my hair, and me sharing SOME of what was going on with us last fall, CJ's sis said something to the effect of "CJ felt like he was leaving before YOU did"...
I have NO idea what gave him the idea that I would walk on him...I've only been in one other serious R (fiance of 10 years ) and HE dumped ME...but somehow CJ DID feel that I didn't value this M, that it was "dead" and just waiting for a burial.
SURPRISE!!! He was WRONG!!!
I think the fervency of my DBing, what I've put up with and (almost) forgiven really blew him away.