You know, I think I actually needed that shove. Thanks, all.

Reality is that for the 1st time I'm really ready for this. SHE is missing out on me. I did screw up and took her for granted. But I am making the changes I needed to make. If she can't appreciate them, then someone will. Maybe I'm not ready for another woman in my life right now but I'm not going to sit on my butt any longer.

She'll either figure it out or she won't. I won't let my life pass me by waiting for her. I figured it out and she may too. But that's not up to me.

And I do have a plan to get my life in gear. I didn't want to go ahead of it because it came out of my MLC period. But that's what's called for right now. My own life on my own terms.

Thanks again all who gave me the bonk on the head. I know I'll probably need it again.

Last edited by M A Holm; 10/10/09 06:00 AM.
~Mark

Me: 38
W: 34
Together: 9yrs
1st M: may '03
1st D: april '08
1st bomb: june '08
remarried: oct '08
2nd bomb: aug '09 --(W asked for D one week into 3 mo. trial separation which was meant to save our M)