I feel that this M is worth every tear I have shed and every moment of heartache I have experienced. I could have so easily taken the easy way out but made a conscious decision not to. I wanted this M to work and if that meant doing whatever it took to save it then so be it. One of the hardest things for me to have to overlook though was the damage done to my pride...even now I find myself still a little resentful of that but I deal with it.
I don't think I will ever know exactly what turned H around. I speculate a lot in my post but in the end it was probably a combination of everything plus the fact that he was finally just READY for it. I wonder about it everyday but I don't ask anymore...I just try to be satisfied with the outcome
3 POSITIVES H smiled at me when he first opened his eyes this morning. THen he kissed me without saying a word.
H let me drive to the store by myself!
We had a disagreement but didn't cling to it.
The last one may not seem like a positive to some but believe me it is. We are TRYING to allow some HEALTHY conflict into our R.
Zoo
"If patience is worth anything, it must endure to the end of time. And a living faith will last in the midst of the blackest storm."
- Mahatma Gandhi
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