Well, made it to Disney and we are checked in. When we came into our room - 1 bedroom condo, I set my stuff on the master bed. Let's see what W does. And she said she would just sleep in the other room (living room really) with the kids. I told her she could sleep "back here" (meaning the bedroom). But she said "No, its fine."
I would be lying if I said I wasn't disappointed. I am. Dam* expectation. But, I see it for what it is - my mistake. Move on.
My thought on claiming the large bed was if we were "normally" M'd, there is no doubt WE would be in that bed. I didn't choose to leave - this is what W expressed some months ago. So, the marital bed is "back here" where I am, not out where you are. You know where to find me.
So after returning from the grocery store, W makes me some hot tea. Just like last night.
So, what's the sitch? Sleeping in the same bed just something she's not ready for? Too big a step? If so, we apparently need more time. By we, I mean she.
So what's the stumbling block for her? Still afraid of getting hurt again? Well, I'm hurting too dammit. Just needed to vent for a second. I know she has hurt too, and probably for a while. My patience is running low. I know my love tank is bone dry. I know how to fix those things. It would just be nice to have some help for a change.
