It's MY life now!!!........

[Silent Chrleader]

Thank you, (((peace))).

I don't know these days if STBXH ever really loved me or if it was all a lie like he has said. I have a tough time believing that people can truly totally change their very character like that.

I think the truth probably lies somewhere in the middle (it usually does). It wasn't all a lie like he thinks, but it probably wasn't there like I always wanted to believe either.

Anyway, I am doing a little better this week. Not great, but better than last week. I did do a "reverse look-up" on the phone number and now know where they live......I felt like crap that day after doing that and felt like an idiot...... why did I do that to myself!!?? It's not like I am ever going to go over there or actually call or anything! I have absolutely no desire to ever meet or talk to "her". But, anyway, I'm doing better now.

Another funny thing....... it looks like he may be hiring my son-in-law to come work for him. So, that would be my step-dad, brother and now SIL, that work there....... How hysterical is that? One could be forgiven for actually thinking he cares....... or that he's salving a really guilty conscience......

I am going to a dance tonight, and there's another one I want to go to tomorrow (if I can get someone to go with me).

Just keepin' on keepin' on......