It is so hard to stay positive around her in light of what is going on with our M but for the past few weeks, I have forced it and bitten my tongue anytime I felt like saying something negative or discussing anything about the R. Last night was tough because we were cooking a nice dinner together which was something we have always enjoyed doing together. The mood was light and it started to seem very familiar to me like nothing had changed. Then I looked at her and the reality hit me like a ton of bricks that yes, she is there and we are doing normal things, however, she is just the shell of the wife that used to be there.
Very tough, cried last night for the first time in weeks. Today is better though, have a good idea of some GALing which I sorely need to start doing!
