Zoo,
You have been through so much! If all that didn't happen to you on your journey then you wouldn't be who you were today but glad to see that this M is what you really want and it's getting healthier via DB. I find it interesting that your H read your journal and decided to turn himself around. To me, Aliens get in SUCH a negative mindset for various reasons and they stay in that hopeless mindset and it makes the DBing so tough.
I got such a kick out of the part of your story that you talked about shooting together then you not shooting w/him so much because you thought he needed to be w/the guys. Then seeing that you got the wrong idea and now you bought the bullets. Makes me wonder if there's stuff I "missed" that we used to do or could do. Thanx.
The words aren't coming today; will close for now. Glad you're on the mend. You got a heck of a bug and I'll pass the orange juice.

pbee