You're right. I am afraid to disengage completely. We both get sucked back into each other. I don't buy no attraction. I think she's pushing it down or confusing it for being intimidated by me. She told me I make her "feel small." I've been an overbearing jerk. I'm straddling a fine line. NC is hard because of kids.

~Mark

Me: 38
W: 34
Together: 9yrs
1st M: may '03
1st D: april '08
1st bomb: june '08
remarried: oct '08
2nd bomb: aug '09 --(W asked for D one week into 3 mo. trial separation which was meant to save our M)