25yearsmlc,

Thanks for the post. I hear you. I'm on my way to detaching. Even yesterday, I had the urge to send her a 'hello' email or a message. But I didn't small step, but I'm getting there again.

Last night I went out and had a blast with my friends including a female friend whom if I was forced to be single, might make a good companion. I still hold affection for my W though.

I think the thing that has kept me in fear is the fact that unlike many MLCers who say they just don't know what they want, my W said flat out that she wanted a D and that was that. No explanation other than she doesn't love me anymore. I mean it was so vague in the beginning that I didn't even know what I had to improve or correct if there were any because she just lost that "feeling" of being in love and doesn't want it back. Oh well.

Anyway, I do see hope too, but until that time I will continue to detach and really leave it up to God. We haven't made any concrete plans for Thanksgiving or Christmas. Last year we spent those two holidays apart. We'll see how things go this time.

There is a wedding of a mutual friend of ours that I'd like to take her to, so we'll see what she says about that.


M-43 W-40
2D - 9 and 5

Emotion, yet peace.
Ignorance, yet knowledge.
Passion, yet serenity.
Chaos, yet harmony.
Death, yet a new life.

RECONCILED AND WISER