Hoping WAW will someday see through the fog....

[shellshockedga]

Well, made it through the night. It wasnt perfect, I rate it a c+ or so, but it wasn't aweful. Stayed away from the d discussion, but the R discussion did come up. Wasn't good, wasn't bad, only lasted about 10 minutes. (sounds like something i havent seen in a long while lol) The gist was that she is begining to unwind and the tension is starting to lesson. Now, she says the wants to take it day by day and see how things go. Maybe try to regain our friendship and then maybe date eachother again. If I were a betting man, I would not take that bet yet. She is going to need time to really come to any conclusion like that. Who knows where I will be then. There were certianly some feelings still there from my side, but emotionally much more under control. Although i was not for this seperation, maybe it will end up doing us both good. Maybe not. Remains to be seen. I am prepared for the worst.


I read nothing into the following, only note it. Now its been several days since I have seen her, but for the last week or two, she has not been wearing a wedding band. Yesterday she shows up to my sons school with the whole engagement ring and band on. Now, the school knows we are seperated, so a little strange. she had nothing to hide. I have refused to take mine off, but that is only a new personal preference. In the past my W did not seem to mind that i did not wear one (woodworking, swimming, many outdoor hobbies) so I wore it when I traveled (all the time) but not at home.

Anyway i read nothing into it.

Did note that today she complained that her finances are "screwed" With help from GIMA, I did not respond to that message, but did wonder if she was starting to get a tiny inkling of what this will really be like.

Ahhhh, probably not. the life of a WAW.

In the mountains for a weekend away. Hope to hike tomorrow if it doesnt rain, if not, on to a bar to watch some great football. Wishing my Ss were here with me, but maybe next time.