You're right, I know that. I am recognizing that S8 would only bring these words up only to garner a reaction out of me. Even the silence -- that pregnant pause before I give him a reply and tell him to drop it -- is undoubtedly enough of a reaction to satisfy his subconscious aims.
(Who says an Asperger's kid can't read subtle emotions? Mine is getting very adept at this!)
I am still struggling, yes. It's taking me some time to learn to take these things in stride. I've come a long way, but I have so much farther to go, obviously. But I do recognize the key to this is my attitude, and I have allowed my animosity towards xW to continue to fester with each negative interaction with her. Until I can replace this in my mind and heart with the many blessings and other positives in my life, I will be stuck in this Wilderness.
For my S's sake I have to get better at being a duck and letting the water roll off my back.
