Puppy`s doing well! A great hit with the kids. Really bringing out the loving side of S14 too and has already become a great touchpoint for the three kids.

Just lovely to watch the three of them playing together with her this am.

I`ve been to therapy yesterday. yes, continuing it but just on a fortnightly basis. She`s really encouraging me to wake up to the fact that the marreiage is over. So has the mediator. she said very bluntly on Tuesday "This marriage is over"

It is. I know it is. But does that mean we`re done? That`s it. No hope of a reconciliation?

I wouldn`t even ask the therapist that or she`d look at me incredulously as if I`m the biggest twit on earth.

And maybe it`s important for me to just believe it is over.

H knows it is.

He didn`t come home at all yesterday. Just slipped in when everyone was in bed. Therapist thinks he`s well capable of blowing up again and doing any kind of damage.

So do I.

I`m staying out of his way. I do nothing to provoke him(apart from existing that is). I`m keeping busy too.

Really, really tired.

Can well believe that when H leaves the relief will be massive.

He`s bent on going, that`s for sure. But we`ll work out how only through mediation. No point in trying to communicate with him right now.

Love to you all! Have a good Friday!