Good question about the Man HarHIM, Kerry. Ready.. if you have to ask... welllllllllllllll... *chucklehugs*
What a beautiful feeling it is to let go..
It dissolves Lifts Gets Tossed Ejected Pried from my hands..
It's like being caught in a tremendous storm with thunder, lightning, violent winds. There's the shock of the abrupt change in weather, mad scrambling to find or create some type of shelter, so much work focusing on surviving the storm that at some point you realize that no only has the storm lessened but that the clouds have cleared, it's a beautiful new day.
No more need to scream to be heard over the winds. Weathering the storm. What better thing to do than to enjoy the day rather than relive the tempest.
Ya know, the guy I was married to has physically been gone almost two years. Get over it already, Kathleen! Sheesh. Whining about the past makes the present less enjoyable. And hello... fun, healthy fun, is a good thing.
Change is okay. I recognize the 'frozen in inaction' signals, the uber anxiety and accept them for what they are. Warning flags of things outside my comfort zone. Just address it. Assume the world is not out to get me.
Learning to trust. Me.
Cuz if I can't trust myself, have faith in me, then I'm doomed to failure.
It's not about being right or wrong. Just trying, doing my best.
So.. no man harHIM... but a few men that I feel comfortable just talking to casually. No agenda. No expectations. Not really wanting anything but to laugh and talk. Be in the moment.
