Hey K.. thanks for the chat. I wish I could have helped you a little more!
On the whole I am very lucky in that its gone as well as it could I think since he was back. Ok, so the way he left was a terrible shock, he never let me see where he lived for 18 months (which does still bother me a bit) and there was a gf for 8 months.. but it IS as though we were never apart really, apart from these bizarre events. He is very reassuring, but generally, life has 'settled down'. Every day since we have got back, theres the odd little bicker, or he has snapped abuot something.. because he is tired, fed up to be back at work and we have builders in who took the roof off the kitchen, so its freezing in here ! But as he said, dont worry, it doenst mean anything, its not that we are harking back to how it was 2 years ago, thats gone now, done, we are going to have little differences of opinion sometimes and thats normal and to be expected in any relationship. When he put it that way, I felt fine. I still have a bit of work to do on my confidence at times. Little things like a moments snapping at me, wouldnt have bothered me a jot 3, 4, 5 years ago. Now they have this significance.. Oh no, am I being annoying, is he going off me, is he going to leave again!?? But of course not. And he's right, its healthy and normal to express himself more honestly.
Just wanted to share that, even though things sound like a bed of roses, it isnt always !!
