Stay strong e. This is a really rough time, but just know that you will make it through.
I found it both surprising, and helpful, to realize just how many people have or are going through just what you are going through. If you are like me, you are probably shocked and ashamed and feel like suddenly you are different from everyone - like your life is a lie.
I started opening up to a few friends, and was really surprised to find out how many of them either had gone through or were going through just this situation. Some had been the LBS. Some had been the WAS and were now contritely trying to work their way back into the R.
You are not alone.
You'll handle it.
Yep -- this. ^
There are lots of folks here -- and elsewhere -- for you, E. Lots. And although it sounds trite, it WILL (and does) get better. Today is the worst day -- by triple.