I think that you need to take a break from seeing her. Now, I know your first thought is "what if she forgets me?" She won't. She will be curious as to why all of a sudden you are not seeing her.
The reason I say this is becasue workinig on yourself while still in the midst of the situation is counterproductive. You need to be okay with you, and right now any outside influence can hinder that. Now, that is not to say you cannot go out with friends, but for at least four to six weeks, try to limit the contact w/ your W. If she calls, tell her you have plans (even if you don't). You don't want to be too accessible.
But in the meantime, MAKE PLANS. Go out to a ball game, join a bowling league, get together with friends for dinner and drinks, or whatever you enjoy doing. You need to keep your mind off this, and you also need to become independent.
One of two things will happen, she will wonder where you have gone, or you might decide this, in fact, is not the right relationship for you. Either way, you will start to feel better.
I once saw someone post that a broken heart is similar to a broken bone. When you break a bone, you go to the doctor, you have it set, you are careful so that it does not get damaged again, and you realize it is going to take time to heal. You do things to take your mind off the pain and itch of healing. But you don't go back and do the same thing you did to cause you to break it in the first place. You try something different.
What is so different about a broken heart?
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
