It's too hard sometimes

[TooLateForMe]

I deleted my dating profile when I found out she wants to block me from seeing her account. I don't want to date. I only made the account because I knew she had one.

I still can't get over the nice talk we had last night. Not that we don't have them but I was so angry about the dating site thing and then I'm chatting like we did three months ago.

One aspect of that conversation struck me. She was complaining about money. She paused at one point to say that she knows I was getting upset, assuming that I only ever get angry when discussing money. I had to reassure her that I was listening and being supportive, not getting mad at all.

Based on the things she was saying I expect a crash. Financially, she's badly in the hole. I don't think her first reaction if things go pear-shaped is to seek solace in me, though. I'm worse off, w/ no job yet. Maybe if I remind her how great a guy I can be... I don't know.

Would it matter if she thought she could lose me? I brought up the fact that I don't want to be "just friends"--before a longish chatty conversation. She seemed peachy with that idea. Would it matter if we stay in contact. I was thinking of making it a weekly thing. Every day on the same day... But that could easily devolve into taking me for granted.

I do want my W back, despite getting angry w/ her. Despite all that's happened. I doubt I'll be ready to jump right back into a living-together M. I need a plan, something to keep me going on the dark days as well as the light. Something for the long haul.

Any thoughts?