Weird stuff going on. Too much to give a play by play of all the things that have happened recently. Basically, H is still stalling on the D. Communication is good and we've spent more time together - not that we planned to, just at the same place at the same time. H is more open when we're together, but still no signs of wanting to reconcile. At last meeting, for the first time in years, H hugged and kissed me on the cheek (both, actually), which I returned. Not sure if it's all in my mind, but it all seemed to happen in slow motion.
I've met someone who I'm interested in getting to know better. I was surprised at the attraction I felt towards him. Several chance meetings. However, H knows him, so not sure it will happen. I'm not going to initiate anything with him. I'd like to get D settled with H first.
Had chance to talk about R with H, but honestly could not think of what I wanted to say. We said we'd talk again, but I think I've already found the answers I need on my own. There are still some things I'd like to say to H though.
I've been feeling really excited about what's going to happen next. I was stuck for sooo long and now I feel like I'm starting to live again. It's a good feeling to have.
