I hate these nights. You can never quite put your finger on whats different, but you feel it.
That's why I come here. People who know exactly the feeling that I am talking about.
I would imagine that she's having some pretty big conflicting issues again. Nothing was said, but she's been hell bent on leaving and now had some pretty significant closeness with me. Those two things couldn't coexist in one heart or head very nicely with eachother.
I think she may be having an issue seeing me GAL after hearing me tell her that I'm preparing for my new life that won't include her too. Dinner was on the table when I got home. W and S were sitting there waiting for me. There was a cold beer at my spot.
When I walked in and I was on the phone with someone laughing and enjoying myself, W clammed up and was off for the rest of the night.
Sounds like you are having an affect on her. Just a cautious little reminder not to get hung up on what she might be thinking - no mindreading. Just focus on you, not her thoughts.
Your happiness must be hitched to how you feel about YOU. Making your happiness depend on her thoughts, actions, words, moods is dangerous and unhealthy - it's called co-dependence. And I used to have that problem too.
Keep doing what you are doing, but only do it for you.
