Crap, I just responded & hit the wrong button. Here goes again.

I think Saf hit the nail on the head. I know I am the unhappy one and unhappy w/ myself & where I am in life at this point in time and that seems to affect how I feel about my M as well. As much as I have thought about it, I still haven't figured out how to "fix" myself, though I am working on it -- going to the gym & trying to do things just for me at times, etc.

I know it sounded like I was playing games, but I honestly don't, OT. Sometimes I try to figure out ways to be a bit more subtle, because if I try to take on the subject w/ H directly, I maybe say things I shouldn't or say them the wrong way. If I decide to actually have some sort of R talk, I will think it through thoroughly prior to actually talking to him.

It was actually quite crazy how much better I felt yesterday after I just got my feelings out of my head and down in writing.

I think the most frustrating part is, for H, he loves me, he decided to stay, end of story . . .

Last edited by RedHeadWife; 10/08/09 01:51 PM.
Me: 38
H: 35
S4, S5, S10
Bomb 01/07
Wanted D - nothing would change his mind
Numerous A's prior to D bomb; EA prior/during D bomb
Piecing 04/07
Deployed for a year 05/07
Still Piecing 2010
M 11 yrs 05/10