In the MLC archives there is a thread on page 82 by hearts blessing titled Im'e having problems need help. It is about this very subject that you are feeling right now. If you read these posts I feel you will gain some insight as to your feelings.
I feel for you as i think we will all be there at one point
You don't get to choose how you're going to die. Or when, you can only decide how you're going to live now. ~Joan Baez
