Thanks again for the comments: "If she wants back in, fully and in a healthy way, must you insist she see the M history the same way?"
Definitely not. If she matures and sees the R in an adult way as I have, she'll see the mistakes both of us have made. I of course do not want the same M. Rather a new one that has grown from the mistakes of the past.
That's the only way we're ever going to grow as a couple. If not, one of us is going to be on here again posting.
I'm going out tomorrow night for a professionals mixer so I asked her to watch the kids. She actually asked me where it was. I'm a little surprised as she didn't really care about anything I did. But oh well, not reading into it.
There will be females there, so I'm looking forward to working my mojo to be sure I'm not "dead" and maybe see what attracts women in general.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.