She texts me back and I try to avoid conversation. She calls me and I avoid some more until I realize that I'm inadvertently jerking her around.
When I confess I'd seen the profile she isn't even mad. We launch into a very mellow casual conversation.
I even say I don't want to be friends--but I can't help it when I'm talking to her. All anger slipped out of me. We're ridiculously compatible. How do I detach? It's not that I even want to remain close friends. I don't know if we can NOT be close. It may take more work to stop than working on the R. That's what gives me hope and at the same time scares me. I feel bipolar. Love her then hate her and sometimes both.
Time. And faith in our bond. Because beneath the hurt is something which seems to keep us in orbit of each other.
~Mark
Me: 38 W: 34 Together: 9yrs 1st M: may '03 1st D: april '08 1st bomb: june '08 remarried: oct '08 2nd bomb: aug '09 --(W asked for D one week into 3 mo. trial separation which was meant to save our M)
